RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway

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Don't knowfor some reason
you get right to my heart

without a word
you light up my world

truly i can never explain

a smile would make this heart thump
a look in your eyes would clench
. . . touch might just kill me

this and that i hear people speak
if you were near me you'd drown them out

i still have no clue what is going on

Whywhy am i
so stupid?

why do i
feel emotions?

how can i
stop everything?

see?

feel?

i want them gone!

is there a way?

oh
i hope so

maybe i can
smash my skull in
or find a way to shoot myself

but it seems none are allowed
since people care

why?

Over youi bet you're listening
to some cheating song
thinking about what
you've done

you think you can
catch me after
what you did
oh no

never will i let
that happen
no more pain and tears
for you

no more chances
to hit me
make me feel bad
you won't touch me

go ahead and try
your going to fail
im over you
what don't you get

i'm over you

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by ~kirocontoy, Mar 3, 2011, 7:43:01 PM
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_{Why?
That's always my question
I know I do a lot for the people I love
But, I cause a lot of problems all the same
I cause issues

I have never been a good friend in my opinion
Even though I try my best
I know i could do better though
I try but i fail
Oh so badly

I say im alright
When im really not
I lie to and throu
So not to have you stress
I'm just someone who will be lost in time

You, my friends
My precious loved ones
You get abused in ways of any
All I deal with getting blamed
Otherwise im fine here.

I don't get it

I've been the cause of much grief
People worry to death for me
I don't see it
No equivalent exchange
Just, I don't know

Here I am crying like a weakling
Because you guys really care about me
I'm not worth anything
Just someone that's going to die
Getting forgotten

Not worth a single penny
No tears
No worry
No pain
Anything

Simply, I could always be replaced}

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Have not been in the greatest of moods and such. This is actually a poem version of what I sent to a friend.... Yeah...

But I have cheered up a little and some of this is actually idealogy of a while ago. I just don't know anymore.

I know I'm going to get scolded for this probably by many people -_-'}

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~ashi244 Mar 4, 2011 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Lies! you can not be replaced! Happiness attack! *glomps*

~kirocontoy Mar 4, 2011

GAH~! I've been attacked . . . . X_X

Muahahahaha

~ashi244 Mar 4, 2011 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

yup! with happiness!

~kirocontoy Mar 4, 2011

~Reixia85879 Mar 3, 2011

K-Kiro... U know I love u... If u were to pass I wouldn't be able to go on... Ur my sister... U put up with my bs... U do alot for every one... I would do ANYTING for u...

~kirocontoy Mar 3, 2011

I know you do. I know the other's do. I know everyone does. Even though I know, it doesn't change the thoughts that run through my head from time to time. It all scares me and I just don't feel all that important. It's just hard to explain really. And I know.

~Reixia85879 Mar 3, 2011

-hugs and holds u tight not wanting to let my sis go-

~kirocontoy Mar 3, 2011

_{You know I'd hug back but that is hard to do over the cpu. So this'll have to do for now.}

~MasterNinjaPanda Mar 3, 2011

Ahhh... that really brought a tear to my eye.... amazing job bud and i know exactly how you feel there...

~kirocontoy Mar 3, 2011

thank you for the fav and thank you for the comment.. and well its glad to have understanding

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